When I do things that really aren't safe

So far this year, a lot of things have happened.  One of those things that hasn't surprised me is the amount that Cara has been working.  She works literally all the time.  All the damn time.  And then she gets upset when we go and do things without her while she's at work.  It's really irritating.  The moral of the story is that I've actually been avoiding doing things so that she doesn't get upset.  That's not fun for me.

It was Outfly on Tuesday, so we had Tuesday's classes on Friday.  That means that I didn't have to go to class until 9:35.  So, I decided that I wanted to go to Beck's to linedance on Thursday.  I asked all my friends if they wanted to come with me, and of course they did.  I was really excited!  Like so incredibly excited!!!  Leah and Emma and Emily and Cara and Dom were all going to come!  Well, it turned out that Dom was on duty and Leah had a meeting and Emma had a meeting about something else.  So as of Thursday at like 7pm it was just me and Cara and Emily, and that was fine with me.  We were going to leave at 8:30, so at like 8:10ish I left the RA office in Clinton to go get ready and Emily was going to join me in like 10 minutes.  Then I get to the room and Cara is sitting here watching a tv show and she says "so...I have to work in the morning..." and I say "if you don't want to go, that's fine.  I'll go by myself, it won't bother me."  And she says, "Emily will go with you, it'll be fine."  About 20 seconds later I get a text from Emily that she's going to stay and do homework instead of coming.  So I finish getting ready, get in my car, and drive myself to Cedar Falls.

I spend the next like 3 hours texting Madison, dancing, and just overall having the time of my life.  I met this guy named Adam from UNI and I asked him to dance with me and it was just a fabulous time.

The problem is:  everybody keeps talking about when we are going to go next.  But I don't know if I want to invite them.  I realize it isn't incredibly safe for me to go dancing by myself, and it was kind of awkward when I sat out a dance because I was all alone.  That being said, it really irritated me when everyone bailed.  I'm not physically mad at them, but it's still like I'm not going to change my plans because you decided you don't want to do it tonight anymore.  I think I'm just going to go whenever I want and not invite anyone to go with me.

Is that dickish?

Do I care?

That's all.  Aight.