Homecoming weekend turned out to be a struggle for more people than just me. But I had some pretty epic struggles myself and it has led me to make some poor decisions about Fall Break. Let me give you some background:
Last year, in about April, I got with this guy we'll call FT. He was a senior and we just hung out and it was really fun. I didn't see him all summer and was practically forgetting how much I liked him, until he showed up at Oktoberfest as an alum. He wanted to meet up, so I talked to him for a bit and it was fabulous. Now when I go up to Iowa to see FP, I'm going to see FT as well. Awks...
Right now I'm in the library. I was working on chem homework and waiting for SSBB to show up to work on it with me, but he didn't come. I'm not incredibly surprised. I need some help with like 8 problems, so I hope he can help me out later today... but he's probably asleep.
I need to work on my IS project, I don't want to let SM down. But I've only gotten one thing back from anyone, so I'm not feeling super conflicted on if I should do it now or not. I am going to go and find an article now though.
That's all. Aight.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Saturday, October 18, 2014
I'm pretty sure my life is a sitcom
Today I worked the Ren Faire for homecoming with the rest of the neuro club, this of course including MB. MB is one of my absolute favoritest people to hang out with--he's just so much fun! The problem being that I found out on Wednesday that he got in trouble a couple weeks ago because his girlfriend heard that some girl was flirting with him and walking down the hallway together. I feel really bad that he got in trouble because of me. I was just helping him carry boxes for his brewing research.... His girlfriend was manning the women's soccer table across the way from our booth, so I felt super awkward and was trying to not have too much fun. Blech.
Last night, SSBB texted me that he had done all of the chem homework. He didn't wait for me. Or inform me. So I was waiting for him and he was doing it all afternoon. It made me kind of upset. I'm not very happy about it.
I think I'm going to put myself on another man hiatus. I've had enough of this.
Last night, SSBB texted me that he had done all of the chem homework. He didn't wait for me. Or inform me. So I was waiting for him and he was doing it all afternoon. It made me kind of upset. I'm not very happy about it.
I think I'm going to put myself on another man hiatus. I've had enough of this.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
I don't know as my man hiatus served me as well as I expected
I don't think my man hiatus served me as well as I expected. It certainly worked last year in friend-zoning every single possible guy, and that was its purpose. My problem now is that every single man looks so much better than he might have last year when I didn't feel so pressed.
Case in point: SM. S, SM. He is so much fun! I love going to that stupid class just so I can sit by AE and giggle the entire class period at absolutely everything he says. The problem with him is that he has a girlfriend. Who lives in Norway. That sounds like a cop-out to me, though it's probably real.
I have work to do, but I'm waiting for NU to come back from her meeting so that I can talk to her about everything on the planet. Also, I'm totally not going to do any more work tonight, not like I really got any done today anyways. I'm not a productive person. I should probably just quit college while I'm ahead.
That's all. Aight.
Case in point: SM. S, SM. He is so much fun! I love going to that stupid class just so I can sit by AE and giggle the entire class period at absolutely everything he says. The problem with him is that he has a girlfriend. Who lives in Norway. That sounds like a cop-out to me, though it's probably real.
I have work to do, but I'm waiting for NU to come back from her meeting so that I can talk to her about everything on the planet. Also, I'm totally not going to do any more work tonight, not like I really got any done today anyways. I'm not a productive person. I should probably just quit college while I'm ahead.
That's all. Aight.
Monday, October 13, 2014
Well here I am again...
I've found that writing in this blog is actually very relaxing, so I think I will continue to do it.
In regards to SSBB and WH I still don't have an answer, but I had a wonderful time chatting with GG tonight. He read over my IS paper and then he met me at SP's floor event (they're dating btw).
(I'm trying to use more code names because the internet, but it makes it look more stressful I think)
I think the reason I like talking to GG so much is because he isn't afraid to say what he wants to. I could say literally anything to him and I wouldn't worry about offending him. Sometimes it does worry me though that I like talking to him so much, I'm afraid SP is going to be mad. I know she won't actually be, but still...right?
RM and her boyfriend broke up today. I feel bad because I bought her cookies and I wrote her a note and then I left for seriously the entire night. That probably wasn't very nice of me, but I did have to write that reflection paper. And then I couldn't resist talking to GG. I'm not a very good roommate I don't think....
The whole room still smells slightly like vomit from Saturday. Blech. I texted SSBB that the worst thing about being sober when your friends were drunk was cleaning up their vomit. He told me I should have left it. I was worried for a while that he thought I lied to him about being sober because I did go to Joe's with my friends still and like his entire team was there. But I decided that if he wanted to know I would have told him that I only go because I want to take care of NU. I love her so much. I worry about her a lot too. This blog certainly makes it sound like I worry a lot. I promise I don't.
I want to go to bed, but RM is watching a movie and I don't want to disrupt her since she really gets to do whatever she wants until fall break probably.
Oh and also, I informed GG outright that I was off my man-hiatus from last year and that if somebody wants me they should just tell me, so he should pass that off onto SSBB and WH and we will see what happens from there. I hope good things. I don't even know what that would be.
I told TG that if WH asked me nicely I would cuddle with him. I don't think she understands that I really do not hate him and GG as much as everyone else does. I don't know quite why they all dislike them so much. That's one of the things that I talked to GG about tonight. He was like "what did we do to them?" and I was like "I'm not 100% sure...". That makes me feel bad too. It's like I'm taking part in hatred even though I don't want to, and that doesn't seem very equal rights.
I promise my next blog will be more upbeat! Aight.
In regards to SSBB and WH I still don't have an answer, but I had a wonderful time chatting with GG tonight. He read over my IS paper and then he met me at SP's floor event (they're dating btw).
(I'm trying to use more code names because the internet, but it makes it look more stressful I think)
I think the reason I like talking to GG so much is because he isn't afraid to say what he wants to. I could say literally anything to him and I wouldn't worry about offending him. Sometimes it does worry me though that I like talking to him so much, I'm afraid SP is going to be mad. I know she won't actually be, but still...right?
RM and her boyfriend broke up today. I feel bad because I bought her cookies and I wrote her a note and then I left for seriously the entire night. That probably wasn't very nice of me, but I did have to write that reflection paper. And then I couldn't resist talking to GG. I'm not a very good roommate I don't think....
The whole room still smells slightly like vomit from Saturday. Blech. I texted SSBB that the worst thing about being sober when your friends were drunk was cleaning up their vomit. He told me I should have left it. I was worried for a while that he thought I lied to him about being sober because I did go to Joe's with my friends still and like his entire team was there. But I decided that if he wanted to know I would have told him that I only go because I want to take care of NU. I love her so much. I worry about her a lot too. This blog certainly makes it sound like I worry a lot. I promise I don't.
I want to go to bed, but RM is watching a movie and I don't want to disrupt her since she really gets to do whatever she wants until fall break probably.
Oh and also, I informed GG outright that I was off my man-hiatus from last year and that if somebody wants me they should just tell me, so he should pass that off onto SSBB and WH and we will see what happens from there. I hope good things. I don't even know what that would be.
I told TG that if WH asked me nicely I would cuddle with him. I don't think she understands that I really do not hate him and GG as much as everyone else does. I don't know quite why they all dislike them so much. That's one of the things that I talked to GG about tonight. He was like "what did we do to them?" and I was like "I'm not 100% sure...". That makes me feel bad too. It's like I'm taking part in hatred even though I don't want to, and that doesn't seem very equal rights.
I promise my next blog will be more upbeat! Aight.
And what exactly am I supposed to do now?
Remember like a week or so ago when I said that I wasn't sure if SSBB (the guy I'm seducing) actually liked me back? And that I kept getting weird mixed signals from him? Well I think I've figured it out.
A little more than a week ago I complained to Dom that I thought my seduction techniques may have been too effective and that I may have accidentally seduced WH. I was mostly joking at the time, because I hadn't collectively thought about why I thought that. It was just the "gut feeling" that we talked about in Neurobio today.
Reasons I think WH may love me:
he let me hug him
he gave me bacon
he gave me some of his cookie
his other friend asked what I thought about him
he is always with SSBB when we study
Reasons I think SSBB may love me:
he won't let me do the homework without him
he always compliments my intelligence
he told me I was a goddess
he does the entire lab while I supervise
he told me I was cute
This is a big problem because WH and SSBB are best friends. Like literally they are the bestest of all friends that ever did live. This is really unfortunate. I was talking to Kammie last night, and she said that she felt bad because she had cuddled with someone that someone else already had dibs on, The other girl said it was okay that Kammie make a move on him, but then was secretly upset which everyone suspected.
I think what has happened is that in my seduction of SSBB I have accidentally seduced WH and now he has called dibs. This puts SSBB in an awkward position since he can't tell me that he loves me and he will feel weird if I tell him and he has to say no because WH claimed me.
I didn't think that love triangles existed in real life, but this is literally the only explanation for what is going on right now.
And what exactly am I supposed to do now?
Help!
A little more than a week ago I complained to Dom that I thought my seduction techniques may have been too effective and that I may have accidentally seduced WH. I was mostly joking at the time, because I hadn't collectively thought about why I thought that. It was just the "gut feeling" that we talked about in Neurobio today.
Reasons I think WH may love me:
he let me hug him
he gave me bacon
he gave me some of his cookie
his other friend asked what I thought about him
he is always with SSBB when we study
Reasons I think SSBB may love me:
he won't let me do the homework without him
he always compliments my intelligence
he told me I was a goddess
he does the entire lab while I supervise
he told me I was cute
This is a big problem because WH and SSBB are best friends. Like literally they are the bestest of all friends that ever did live. This is really unfortunate. I was talking to Kammie last night, and she said that she felt bad because she had cuddled with someone that someone else already had dibs on, The other girl said it was okay that Kammie make a move on him, but then was secretly upset which everyone suspected.
I think what has happened is that in my seduction of SSBB I have accidentally seduced WH and now he has called dibs. This puts SSBB in an awkward position since he can't tell me that he loves me and he will feel weird if I tell him and he has to say no because WH claimed me.
I didn't think that love triangles existed in real life, but this is literally the only explanation for what is going on right now.
And what exactly am I supposed to do now?
Help!
Saturday, October 11, 2014
When I do things that really aren't safe
So far this year, a lot of things have happened. One of those things that hasn't surprised me is the amount that Cara has been working. She works literally all the time. All the damn time. And then she gets upset when we go and do things without her while she's at work. It's really irritating. The moral of the story is that I've actually been avoiding doing things so that she doesn't get upset. That's not fun for me.
It was Outfly on Tuesday, so we had Tuesday's classes on Friday. That means that I didn't have to go to class until 9:35. So, I decided that I wanted to go to Beck's to linedance on Thursday. I asked all my friends if they wanted to come with me, and of course they did. I was really excited! Like so incredibly excited!!! Leah and Emma and Emily and Cara and Dom were all going to come! Well, it turned out that Dom was on duty and Leah had a meeting and Emma had a meeting about something else. So as of Thursday at like 7pm it was just me and Cara and Emily, and that was fine with me. We were going to leave at 8:30, so at like 8:10ish I left the RA office in Clinton to go get ready and Emily was going to join me in like 10 minutes. Then I get to the room and Cara is sitting here watching a tv show and she says "so...I have to work in the morning..." and I say "if you don't want to go, that's fine. I'll go by myself, it won't bother me." And she says, "Emily will go with you, it'll be fine." About 20 seconds later I get a text from Emily that she's going to stay and do homework instead of coming. So I finish getting ready, get in my car, and drive myself to Cedar Falls.
I spend the next like 3 hours texting Madison, dancing, and just overall having the time of my life. I met this guy named Adam from UNI and I asked him to dance with me and it was just a fabulous time.
The problem is: everybody keeps talking about when we are going to go next. But I don't know if I want to invite them. I realize it isn't incredibly safe for me to go dancing by myself, and it was kind of awkward when I sat out a dance because I was all alone. That being said, it really irritated me when everyone bailed. I'm not physically mad at them, but it's still like I'm not going to change my plans because you decided you don't want to do it tonight anymore. I think I'm just going to go whenever I want and not invite anyone to go with me.
Is that dickish?
Do I care?
That's all. Aight.
It was Outfly on Tuesday, so we had Tuesday's classes on Friday. That means that I didn't have to go to class until 9:35. So, I decided that I wanted to go to Beck's to linedance on Thursday. I asked all my friends if they wanted to come with me, and of course they did. I was really excited! Like so incredibly excited!!! Leah and Emma and Emily and Cara and Dom were all going to come! Well, it turned out that Dom was on duty and Leah had a meeting and Emma had a meeting about something else. So as of Thursday at like 7pm it was just me and Cara and Emily, and that was fine with me. We were going to leave at 8:30, so at like 8:10ish I left the RA office in Clinton to go get ready and Emily was going to join me in like 10 minutes. Then I get to the room and Cara is sitting here watching a tv show and she says "so...I have to work in the morning..." and I say "if you don't want to go, that's fine. I'll go by myself, it won't bother me." And she says, "Emily will go with you, it'll be fine." About 20 seconds later I get a text from Emily that she's going to stay and do homework instead of coming. So I finish getting ready, get in my car, and drive myself to Cedar Falls.
I spend the next like 3 hours texting Madison, dancing, and just overall having the time of my life. I met this guy named Adam from UNI and I asked him to dance with me and it was just a fabulous time.
The problem is: everybody keeps talking about when we are going to go next. But I don't know if I want to invite them. I realize it isn't incredibly safe for me to go dancing by myself, and it was kind of awkward when I sat out a dance because I was all alone. That being said, it really irritated me when everyone bailed. I'm not physically mad at them, but it's still like I'm not going to change my plans because you decided you don't want to do it tonight anymore. I think I'm just going to go whenever I want and not invite anyone to go with me.
Is that dickish?
Do I care?
That's all. Aight.
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