An Update on BFZ

BFZ and I are going on a date on Saturday.  Like, a legitimate date.  I'm very excited.  I feel a little awkward (honestly) because he isn't quite the person that I dream about dating, but I always have so much fun with him and I really do like him.

The real reason that I'm telling you about this is because I have a paper due at the end of semester, and I've decided to write it on Saturday.  The biggest problem is that I haven't done any work on it and I am avoiding everything to do with it.  *awkward*

Right now I should be writing an outline, because I promised myself that I would, but it's so haaaaard.  I don't want to do it.  Not now, not ever.  It's not even going to be that difficult to put this paper together, I already have a bajesus load of sources, I just need to narrow down what I actually want to talk about.  I'd like to go in depth into how synesthesia (that's the topic of my paper) can help and hinder day-to-day life, focusing on it's abilities to enhance memory while also distracting the student.  I'm excited for the end product, but I'm worried about the process.

My actual best friend is coming on Thursday.  We are going to go dancing (finally I won't be by myself) and then she's coming to all my classes on Friday and then probably staying until Saturday morning.  So I will use one meal on her Thursday night, and one for lunch on Friday.  That should be fine.  I'm sure we will go out Friday night because that sounds like fun!

So I Did the Running....

Yesterday after I signed off of this blog, I went for a run.  It was awful, but NU makes me do it, so I keep up with it in case she tests me to make sure I have actually been upping my increments.  Ugh.

In regards to bfZ and SSBB, I saw SSBB today and I do, in fact, continue to have an unreasonable attraction to him.  *ignoring* I am ignoring everything now.  I'm going to go eat a brownie, do my nails, watch TV, and brush my teeth then go to flute choir and band and class and somehow find myself some dinner.

Aight.

The Things You Need to Know

If you follow my posts religiously (as everyone should), then you might be wondering what kinds of things have happened since Homecoming Weekend.  Well, everything has.

I visited FT and only got to spend like 30 minutes with him because he had to head home because his brother was visiting from the navy.  So that was a little lame, but I don't blame him.

Fall break was my ultimatum for SSBB.  I didn't ever tell him, but I've given up entirely on that seduction plan.  It's irritating to think that I let my attraction get in the way of anything.  I'm tired of it.  If he's not going to show up on time or bother to text me back, I'm not going to waste my time on him.

The main problem now is that there are still two men in my life.  MfB and bfZ.  I'm ignoring the entire situation, as MfB has a girlfriend and I don't want to really date bfZ I just want to spend time with him all the time.  He's my favorite.

I'm going to go physically run away from my feelings now.  Aight.